May 12th, 2006

What's a personal bubble? - BOYS

Why can't *I* have a bullhorn?

Dude. It's 0327 and I'm still awake. I'm watching NBC Late Night so I'm watching last Thursday's Leno.

And I realized something. Anyone who wants to know what talking to me in person is like? Imagine Ty Pennington but with a more pronounced stutter and and a little more speed.

Seriously. It's so spot-on it's kinda scary.
What's a personal bubble? - BOYS

Insomnia is habit forming and addictive in its own weird way.

Lookit that. Almost 23 hours.

This is what happens when I forget to take my pills and have nothing to do but sit on this and sleep.

Still fucking up The Fic. I spent an inordinate amount of time doing embarrassing research for a part I'm probably going to cut out completely.

Did you know that it's freakin' hard to write "normal" people?

Totally have to remember to hunt/make icons today.
What's a personal bubble? - BOYS

27 hours awake right now.

Joseph: Dude, turn it to 61, The Jackel's on.
Ma: The movie?
I: *Change channel and see some guy in a halo*
Joseph: Check out the dude in the head cage.

Ladies and gentlemen, my brother.
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I hate the way I write. I really, really do. I read one of my fics today, because I do it every so often to try and find my soft spots and see where I need to improve, and I just hate it so much its insane. I hate they way I wrote it and the style I wrote it in and I'm resigned to the fact that I will always think this way.

Writing makes me want to draw. And that makes me even sadder because everyone I know can draw phenomenally and I... Can't. And I don't really know what I want to draw either. And I don't really have any time to draw because it takes me so long just to do one picture. I'm talking weeks before I feel kinda comfortable with it usually.

Ma's home till Monday so I still may try sometime this weekend.
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I have an entire page of tidbits I want to shape into a story somehow. This is my carrot at the end of The Dean Fic.
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I'm currently procrastinating by organizing my SPN Fic Folder. It's the only one I have that's all messy and that's being fixed right now.
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I totally just made pants for Dean.
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I should probably work on that stupid fic some more, huh?
What's a personal bubble? - BOYS

ZMOGSZ!

Special Sooper Sekrit Message to Ferry:

His name is Barack Obama and he's awesomely awesome. I totally woulda told you in your journal but I have now been up for... about 37 and a half hours. And my brain hurts. And my net keeps kicking me when I try to load your journal.

I think I backspaced even more than you in this entry because my OCD trumps your OCD by like, a google.

Hee. There's a drunken Ferry on my FList right now. :P

Gyah. My brain aches.

It's 2239 right now and I think I may attempt to try and stay up to 0100 so I can see Conan. Conan comes on at midnight here so... Yeah. Whatever.

I'm hungry and I'm thirsty and I cannot seem to bring myself to do much of anything involving moving.